Sometimes all you need in life is balance, not necessarily the 50-50 kind of balance. But just that enough satisfaction and disappointment, when one ecstasy doesn't have it's particularly equal tragedy and regardless whether this two emotions hit you in extremes, you’re perfectly capable of handling yourself -- that kind of balance. Honestly, I have this different and simple definition of balance that I live with, well it’s not really that different except people had lost sight of this definition of balance. All people think when they hear balance, is this state of equality. But balance can also mean stability, as simple as that. And sometimes, I see stability as contentment as much as it means strength. You just have to know the right place to stand, be the right person on the right place at the right time. Believe me, it's easy to say but we all struggle to find that. Sometimes, we just don't see it but we do not want that equal balance, we just want enough. Besides, what kind of life would you live if you know that your possible happiness at the moment has it's exact equal opposite? Would you live to feel the happiness? Or would you rather be safe than to experience joy and its opposite?
But the question is, how do you reach this balance? And when will you know you've reached it? To be honest, I have no idea but I'll try. I am at a point in my life where I constantly wish I'm dead every time something goes wrong, likewise, when I'm happy. You'd think that at my current state of being an out of school youth, unemployed and what not, I am in no position to talk about balance. But believe me, I think I like it here, wherever it is I am. You're not supposed to have this happy, filthy rich lifestyle to be balanced. Money can't buy happiness, right?
You just go for something you know you want right now, you'll always have tomorrow and the next to go for something else. Just make sure you stand by your choices and you accept the consequences. You can't want everything all at once, can you?
Oh my God, I didn't think this was going to pop out of me this at 4:30 in the morning of the 29th of October. Maybe it's fate or maybe just a coincidence, whatever it is, I guess I'll never figure out. WOW.
