I'm not good with introductions.
It almost always come out wrong.
My words are slurred and twisted.
But I guess I could try.
Ariel Villanueva
18 years old
A PERFECT NUTTER.
Hang with me.
With enough time eventually we all see what was right in front of us. And realize no matter how long it took, it was worth the wait.
But for some, that time never comes. Instead of healing old wounds, the wait just open new ones. Time after time. - Gossip Girl
Here’s to the beginning of summer! Well, I’m slowly but successfully
completing my summer playlist. So brace yourselves for a very
hipster-folk-hippie soundtrack, as usual.
This year has been a blast! Well, it was pretty rough for a
do-over but amazing nonetheless. (Technically, it’s not a do-over since I never
really had been here before, I was just delayed.) I met great and very youthful
people, sometimes they can be a handful but I get by because they are naturally
loving and surprisingly trusting. I have
a lot of people to thank for, now that I’m here. (I’m not YET graduating so
this is not a graduation post) I am just very thankful that this year has
exceeded my expectations. I feel young and free. I may have made choices that I
initially didn't want but, it’s true what people say, everything indeed happens
for a reason. Two years was quite a long time and I may have been left behind
but the place I stumble upon, rather came back to was shinier and brighter than
it was the first time I was here.
I do thank my batch mates for always supporting me and
keeping in touch with me. You guys have made my first year both heavenly and
tragic. (NO I’M JUST KIDDING) It has been a wonderful experience spending time
with all of you. We didn't know that much before, but now we do and we’re
heading different paths better, stronger and definitely wiser. To my high
school classmates, I don’t know what I’d be now if it weren't for the people who
loved me and hated me. I wish I was graduating with you guys but maybe I’m
destined to stay behind. No worries, I’ll be sitting in a pile of school work
while you hover over piles of office work. I do wish you luck as you enter a
completely new setting in your life. I can’t imagine all of you entering the
adult world because all of you don’t look old to me. Sometimes I forget how old
we are because when I look at all of you I still see those 18-year old people
except you’re in your practicum or senior uniforms. This is your clean slate. Use
it well, make wiser decision and of course, take on every adventure along the
way. I miss you all so dearly and hope to see you soon conquering the world. Of
course, congratulations for making it out of college completely sane and all
parts intact! You all have done extremely well.
To my batch mates, I thank you for sharing and entire year
with me. God knows we've been to success and failure, and this has been our
trial year. We know better now. We will stick together and remain stronger for
each other.
To my EM family, I love you all the most! We have been
through good and bad but we stuck with each other. We have 2 more years filled
with trials and success that we will share with everyone. ALWAYS REMEMBER that
ATE GOT YOUR BACKS. I will fight and scratch and claw through anything for all
of you guys. This has been amazing and I’m glad I spent it with you so thank you
for all the love, support, respect, and for accepting me through and through
without judgment. Let’s leave all the worry and stress of the previous school
year and look forward to the amazing adventures we will make. I love you all so
much.
To my HS best friends, I could not have done anything
without the four of you. You have inspired me and got me through the toughest
times. I love you all so very much and I always will.
To my first year college best friends, thank you for always
loving me and keeping touch with me. I know it must have been hard but you are
to enter the most amazing adventure of your lives and I will always be here
behind you cheering you and wishing you well.
To my sophomore year best friends, I love you all so much
words are not enough. You have gotten me through anything and you have accepted
me for the worst flaws to the sparkly, shiny parts. You stuck with me through
anything and for that I will be stuck with you forever too. I will be the nagging
bigger sister you never had and of course, I will be the best friend you can
always trust. NO JUDGMENT. FOREVER.
To everyone, I will graduate. It may not happen on time but I
will. I wasn't a bad student or person; I was just a victim of the cruel hands
of fate. Don’t take it against me as I do not, not with myself nor my family. Things
happen for many reasons what these are will unravel at a time in your life when
you may have embraced it completely you've forgotten, or totally lost track of
it because you've moved on; nonetheless, these reasons will untangle itself and
will find a purpose in your life. So for now, allow me to enjoy the heat, some
amazing music and an awesome season, after all, I slaved my ass off the entire
year and the two years before that.
The Last Time. Saturday, December 22, 2012 7:07 PM
For most people, the hardest part of life is keeping strong and firm with and against your heart. For strong people, the struggle is keeping yourself guarded so that no one can hurt you when you least expect it. I got caught up. I was at a point where I thought nothing in this place is ever going to hurt me. I was wrong. When I thought I was safe, this turned out to be the most dangerous place for me. Normally, I'll say, "fuck this shit, I'm moving on", but this mess I got myself into is a dead end. Only when I finally decide to let myself hurt do I get out of this place. This is a tricky place I have already lived in sometime in my past. I thought I knew better not to play with fire. Turns out every fire you meet along the way is different, in cause and in solution; but all fires are the same -- tricky and painful when touched. I get how painful it eventually gets when you get burned, I just don't understand why people opt to play through this game over and over. Do they somehow get immune to the pain? Do they find pleasure in it? Why do people opt to get hurt in love than to focus on something more reasonable? Honestly, I would rather just have broken bones, all of them, than have a broken heart. Nothing can substitute for that black hole that will lives in the middle of your chest when things are all screwed up. Life always screws up with love. When do you actually give up the fight?
Trick or Treat Wednesday, October 31, 2012 6:36 PM
There's really not much to say except...
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
Ask for better treats or trick people very well, little bunnies.
Love, Ariel. xx
I Watched it Begin Again. Tuesday, October 23, 2012 6:31 PM
There's something about this album that's got me singing with it and hating it at the same time. (Well maybe not hating it. More like judging it. LOL). All in all, I LOVED THIS ALBUM and the music videos. It's an older, more mature Taylor (I can't say wiser though. -____-), nonetheless, this album hits a lot closer to home in a very mature kind of way. I can't pick out which one's my favorite because everything in it is well written and sung very emotionally. For example, Begin Again, there's something about this song that's heartbreaking and uplifting at the same time. Maybe it's the illusion/promise of someone just coming around to help you move forward. Also, All Too Well, which unfortunately is a very tragic song. Words like "You call me up again just to break me like a promise. So casually cruel in the name of being honest" which by the way is the most powerful part of the song along with the rest of the words in that stanza. All I can say is, (well I may have said enough, but rest assured I'll say a lot more) it's a more mature Taylor, one who's exploring age fairly well yet at the same time, some songs remind me of the Taylor she used to be: that fragile little girl crying on her guitar or that girl who seems to think that slamming screen door is a good theme song. LOL, I'm just joking. Anyway, I also loved the people she collaborated with (Gary Lightbody from Snow Patrol and Ed Sheeran) and the songs they sang. But really, The Last Time gives me goosebumps.
Some people say it's too pop. But in honesty, she's growing up. You can't expect her to be 22 and writing about high school. People evolve. She has to step out of her teeny-booper days or else she's going to end up on the re-runs of some show asking "what happened to them?". She's far to talented and witty to be forgotten. Besides, since when did reinvention turn out bad? May I remind you of one American-semi-British Maddona, or JLo (whom by the way is not Jenny from the ghetto block anymore. She's Jenny from the classy New York block with twins I'm not racist sorry. Just making a point). Give the girl a break. Plus, even if she turn rock no one would care, people would still listen to her even she rapped. That's the power of her words and her experiences which people are so fond of knowing. Well anyway, too pop or not, she's still amazing at writing songs (at least you can give her credit for that).
I have to say though, there are some teen singers/stars who does not age very well, take Selena for example. She looks really tired when in fact she's not doing anything with her life other than being Justin's girlfriend. But Taylor, God, she's super pretty now. When I would look at her old photos, she looked like a girl from horror movies, but now she's cleaned up well. Anyway, she looked gorgeous in the music video of Begin Again.
Happy hell days!!! Saturday, October 06, 2012 7:29 AM
Well, it's been quite long little fella!
Hell days are here again. Plus I've been stressed out of my wits for weeks now. Sucks ass. Right now, I'm too lazy to do any of my projects and start reviewing for the exams. I can say things are going well for me but they're okay. The one thing though that bothers the shit out of me is my ID; I fucking lost it. UGH.
Can I just say, the whole Fifty Shades of Grey thingy is not bad at all. I mean, seriously, it's okay and not as bad as people seem to think. (Okay, whoever's reading this is probably judging me. LOL) I'm not saying it's good, it's just not as awful as people say. Then again it's still a book and like everyone else, I hate shitty books.
*In my defense, I read it out of curiosity. THAT'S ALL. LOL.
My exams start this Monday and blockmates and I are thinking of watching Perks of Being a Wallflower. I hope it happens, though. I've been waiting for the movie since, my loves Emma Watson, Nina Dobrev and Logan Lerman are in it.
I better get back to work because ELEAP's a BITCH again. UGH!!! Why can't anyone access this thing properly.
Wish me luck for my exams!!
STUDY MODE: ALMOST ON :)
Bawling. Saturday, June 09, 2012 8:14 PM
It's hard you know? Being enthusiastic about one thing for years. Imagine how hard it would be being in love with one person for five years. YES! It sucks big time.
Explain to me how does one break such cruel habit?
All seriousness aside, I'm back in school! It's about time, I know. But life is tough, so you take what you can get and actually love it.
Finger crossed though, I keep my enthusiasm 'till the end. LOL.
