I'm not good with introductions.
It almost always come out wrong.
My words are slurred and twisted.
But I guess I could try.
Ariel Villanueva
18 years old
A PERFECT NUTTER.
Hang with me.
With enough time eventually we all see what was right in front of us. And realize no matter how long it took, it was worth the wait.
But for some, that time never comes. Instead of healing old wounds, the wait just open new ones. Time after time. - Gossip Girl
Breathe Again. Wednesday, October 06, 2010 10:59 PM
I just checked his Facebook hoping to make sure that I am way past this, way past him. But unfortunately, I broke down. I AM NOT JEALOUS. Or maybe I am. I don't know. I guess testing myself proved to be a wrong idea. Apparently it's very bad for my heart. I thought I was done though, but in my defense, he doesn't affect me as much as he did before which means I'm making progress. I don't know what happened, but I think Vampire Diaries episode 4 triggered this disease of mine. Very bad and it got me listening to Sara Bareilles' album.
Maybe it's me. Maybe I don't want to let go. Maybe I want something to hold on to until I find the real thing. This is wrong. Why am I so confused?!? I mean, he's happy, finally he's found the girl. That's good, right?
Maybe that's exactly why I'm like this. I'm messed up because he's gone forth with his life and I never had the chance to tell him at least. I guess it's better this way. They say everything happens for a reason, right? Well, whatever the reason is, I need to know now because it's taking a toll on me.
"All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe. Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again." - Sara Bareilles (Breathe Again)
Breathe Again
Car is parked, bags are packed, but what kind of heart doesn't look back At the comfortable glow from the porch, the one I will still call yours? All those words came undone and now I'm not the only one Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns
All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again I'll breathe again
Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart And my burden to bear is a love I can't carry anymore
All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again
It hurts to be here I only wanted love from you It hurts to be here What am I gonna do?
All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again I'll breathe again
